RAYA EVE IS COMING...

Assalamualaikum and Hi...

Well today the first time i'm typing in English..i don't know how it will be sound as.. I'm not fluently in English but practice make perfect...hihih.. i guess...

In a few weeks Raya eve is coming... well, for that i haven't make any preparation yet..why??? the reason is because i haven't have any money. I'm not sure when will i received my salary..but even i get my salary i have to pay up so many things and i still don't have enough money to prepare my children a new cloth and to buy cookies for the guest..

Hurmmm... that day i've spoken with my youngest child regarding the preparation that i haven't make and with a sincere face he told me that 'it's okay mummy, i still had my old cloth to wear this Raya eve.. and i still can wear my old shoe even it's a little tight."

The tears drop from my eyes when i listen what he had said.. I'm so sorry my son, i'm so sorry... 

Sometimes, i'm feeling down when ever i've been thinking about this but Allah is still with me. I know that Allah just giving me a test weather i can bear the test that He had given to me. Allah is not cruel to his people..

Every times i feel down i would always says.. Ya Allah..Ya Allah... for may times...and that my burden will go away slowly..

Sometimes i been thinking, why is this happening to me?? but i realize that i still have my beloved husband, my children and my parents that always be my side. How about those people that have not all that?? Surely i thank full to Allah for giving me this wonderful people that i love.

I have to understand, that money is not everything, but love with someone in our side is more cherish and wonderful feeling that others problem.

Oh well, maybe for now i'm writing in English... i think i have so may mistake in my present and my past stance.. hahahah... 

I think i should try to learn more on how to write or to speak in English better... 

Well see you soon in the next chapter of my life... bye..

Assalamualaikum...